And I enjoy companionship too.
Do you guys ever get the feeling that the world around you is somewhat... Noisy? Cluttered, messy, chaotic with everyone blabbering away that you very much feel like shutting yourself away from it totally. Yup that's what I've been feeling for the time that I was missing in action in updating this spot.
I love people. I really do. I could sit in Starbucks with a grande Java Chip with whipped cream and just look at the passer-bys come and go. And I like telling myself stuff. Stuff along the lines of, "I like her shoes." or "He has such sparkly eyes." or "She has a lovely smile." (Just a note: I'm not schizophrenic) I could do such stuff all day.
Perhaps the blusterous world that I'm facing right now is actually my state of mind. It's like wind roaring right at you - You can't help but want to shut your ears and close your eyes and run away. That's when I realised that I enjoy solitude.
I kinda wanna keep my distance from people nowadays. From socialising. I would really just want to stick to my closest friends and just huddle together. To free my mind from something which I'm not even sure of that's bothering me. It's not a bad feeling, it's not stress. It's just the kind of feeling that keeps my mind really active throughout the day and night (I haven't been sleeping well lately, literally. Sigh) and for some reason it's just really............ Noisy.
I think it'd be a real treat if I took a day off from the books and go shopping in town alone. To clear my mind and hopefully I'd be back prancing and frolicking around by then :)
I'm not lonely. Maybe I am, but I'm not. Does that even make sense? Under the skies in the hell we're living in, what would be a perfect form of escapism? Sweet nothings. My tragic flaw and kryptonite, sweet nothings.
Whisper them into my ear, and hopefully they'll whisk my mental tornado away.
P.S/ All pictures & words taken and edited personally.
P.S// On a brighter note I might be doing/uploading (if it turns out well) a GSS haul video before school reopens!
P.S/// I'm really okay guys, just that I had a hard time putting all those thoughts into words :)